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I Can't Sleep...



It's 2:00AM here and I have to get up early tomorrow, but I can't seem to get to sleep. I've tried listening to some music...some TV...a favorite movie, but I'm still pretty devastated about that game we just played and my mind cannot settle down. I've been a fan for over 30 years, but I don't think I've ever felt as much angst as I do tonight. The utter despair of wanting something so bad, yet knowing it's out of reach and knowing there is little I can do to attain what I most desire. It might have been easier to cope if we weren't presented with all this false hope. Just when I think we've turned the corner, I discover there is yet another corner. I'm hoping that writing out my feelings will serve as a catharsis. Maybe I can then get some sleep...

I'm rational enough to understand that it's just a game, and not as important as a cherished family member. I'm not planning on jumping off a bridge because of the loss, or yelling at the next person I meet. I still have perspective, so I will place these feelings I have in its proper place. As an eternal optimist, I take stock in what we still have. We have some good players (although not nearly enough), we have ample resources to get better (we have all our draft picks and will draft relatively high), and we always have next year.

Here's hoping that we can improve and improve quickly...I don't have forever...but as a fan, I WILL wait as long as it takes...I'm not going to stop being a fan even if I don't get what I want...such is my reality...such is my choice...

To all my BTB brethren...know that I feel your despair...and you are not alone.

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