The game yesterday was typical of Dallas games nowadays. They didn't play that well, but they played just good enough to stay close or to keep their opponent close. I have seen many of these games over the years and in years past they wore me out. I can remember back watching the Cowboys, in 86 I believe where they missed the playoffs for the first time since 74. Hope those are the right years. The year doesn't matter as much as what happened in 86. I was watching the game and I believe it was the last game against the Redskins. I was in shock when the game ended, I just couldn't accept that the season was over. My heart beat increased, my anger was rising, I was freaking out something bad. Before I knew it my chest was hurting, I had shortness of breath, but my anger was still rising. Well I eventually calmed down. We entered the next few years, the last of the Landry times, and we didn't have much success. By 89 when Landry was fired and we ended up going 1-15, a change started occurring in me. In the past when the boys lost I would turn on my best friend if he wasn't a fan of the Cowboys. I got into arguments on Monday morning with total strangers if they made a remark against the Cowboys. In short I was a very bad loser. My family paid the cost back in those days. I was always in a sour mood. It got pretty bad for me, but I had obviously learned my lesson and I didn't get as excited as I did that one year. Today I watch the Cowboys by myself because I cant control my emotions when it comes to these guys. I would lash out at a nun if she said the wrong thing after a Dallas lost. I know I am not alone in these feelings because I read what a lot of people say on blogs nowadays. What I do find weird is when these "fans" criticize the team, the players, the coaches, the owners, the GM, etc. I find myself mad at them. The other day I was on a blog and a comment was made and I thought it was directed at me and I took issue with it, turns out it wasn't me at all. That is how much I still wear my feelings about these losses close to the surface. I hate them! I see all the analysis and I think why? I watched the game, I know what they did wrong, why rehash the stuff over and over and over. Why! Why! Why! I used to love ESPN. I wouldn't watch that crap for a second today. I feel lost all week after a lost, its like I have no where to go, nothing to look at, because it is all analysis about a subject that I wish I hadn't known about. LOL AS a fan I love the Dallas Cowboys but they are driving me frigging insane!!! In the end its just a game. So how did it get to life and death status, why do people commit violent acts, even murder after their team losses. Why does a team losing a game unleash so much anger? God I hope its a short week. LOL I have learned to not be so mad, not to get so involved and worked up, not to expect them to win all the time. I am more compatible towards my family, I can go on with the day after a frigging 12 noon game that they lose in the last frigging 1:02. LOL see what I mean total control and its little more than 24 hours since the game. So what will your reaction be the next time they lose, will you have a heart attack or will you be able to carry on the day as if nothing had happened that had caused your heart to be cut out just a few short hours earlier. Will you be pleasant towards your fellow man, wife, kids, etc. or will you be unable to say their names and not add foul words before and after them? Will you get out and enjoy all that God's earth has provided you or will you be filled with loathing and hatred towards all beautiful objects, like butterflies and squirrels. Does anyone else sic their POMS on the local squirrels after a lost? Just wondering! Well I have shared my feelings with all of you today. I have to go pick up the dead squirrels now, thanks for listening.